Afraid of the Light

Lyrics written by Oksana Porteous

I can’t feed her from here

She can’t feel me from here

While I lie, by and by, night after night

While you try to catch my eye

 

I won’t wish you goodnight

‘Cause I’m afraid of the light

 

I’m quite comfortable right here

This dark path is lit quite clearly

For me to see what’s down by my knees

I’m begging you please

Don’t ask for a thing from me

 

I won’t wish you goodnight

‘Cause I’m afraid of the light

 

I can’t even say I’ll make it up to you

I can’t even say I know how to

 

I won’t wish you goodnight

‘Cause I’m afraid of the light

All That's Love Is Mine

Lyrics written by Carol-Anne Day

When I’m awake and you’re awake the time we take

It feels just right

And if you open up your heart to me then you would see

I love you all the time

 

So I’ll take my time and leave behind and

Soon you’ll find that

All that’s love is mine

 

At any given time of day when we can play

Well I’m sublime

And if I have a shitty day I just come home

And you’ll make it ok; ok

 

So I’ll take my time and leave behind and

Soon you’ll find that

All that’s love is mine

 

‘Cause I love you so I love you so

I’d eat you up; ‘cause I love you

So I love you so I love you so I love you so

I’d eat you up; ‘cause I love you

 

So let’s take our time and leave behind and

Soon you’ll find

Yeah let’s take our time and leave behind and

Soon you’ll find that all that’s love is mine

 

When I’m awake and you’re awake the time we take

It feels just right

And if you’d open up your heart to see then you would see

That all that love is mine; It’s all mine

 

So I’ll take my time and leave behind and

Soon you’ll find that

All that’s love is mine

Attrition

Lyrics written by Carol-Anne Day

Sometimes things end, sometimes they don’t.

Sometimes they lie in wait.

Like shadows they’ll hide in the dark,

To pounce on your sweetest mistakes.

 

Call them up

Call them out.

 

With the hands of a king, draw them on out.

It gets darker the deeper you dig.

It’s hardest to meet them face to face,

When you have nothing worthwhile to say.

 

Call them up

Call them out.

 

Call them on out

Turn ‘em into stone

Call them on up

 

Sometimes things end, sometimes they don’t.

Sometimes they lie in wait.

It’s hardest to meet them face to face,

When you have nothing worthwhile to say.

 

Call ‘em on up, call ‘em on out.

Blue Robin

Lyrics written by Oksana Porteous

Reach out slowly

You’ve got nothing but time

See this is Holy

So you’ll be just fine

It’s time to play now

So don’t you lay down; ‘cause you’ve got life to breathe

And don’t be scared now; ‘cause you’ve got loads of love to land on

Safely

Blue Robin; Robin Blue

Its time we learned a thing or two; from you

Blue Robin; Robin Blue

The air is clean now

You’ve got nothing to hide

And you can see now

But it just takes time

When things get greyer

Don’t you lay there and refuse to shine

‘Cause there’s so much to do here

And you’ve got loads of love to leap from; every time

Blue Robin; Robin Blue

Its time we learned a thing or two; from you Blue Robin

Robin Blue Robin; Robin Blue

Be strong

Free to be wrong

Learn from old feet

Pick up pennies off the street

And talk slow

Think fast

Honor what you know

And always know your own beat

Blue Robin; Robin Blue

Its time we learned a thing or two; from you Blue Robin

Robin Blue Robin; Robin Blue

Can't Stop

Lyrics written by Carol-Anne Day

I’ve been caught up in the storm.

Wind swept and washed to the shore.

Peace find me;

Lost with the wreck again.

 

Can’t stop running

You can’t stop running...

 

Alone on the bank once more.

Dried up and twisted I just couldn’t take anymore.

Peace find me;

Lost with the wreck...

 

(Once more you feed the light)

Until it’s on your side

 

And then you can’t stop running

You can’t stop running

You can’t stop running

You can’t stop; can’t stop...

 

Peace find me;

Lost with the wreck...

 

(Once more you feed the light)

Until it’s on your side

 

Can’t stop running

You can’t stop running

You can’t stop running

You can’t stop; can’t stop

 

We all fall down...

 

Cold Water

Lyrics written by Oksana Porteous

Just let him know, go ahead and say so

Open your arms so she can see you

And it’s time that you let go

And when you do, you won’t need control

 

Just let her do what she needs to do

And when she’s through she’ll come right back here

And if it’s all meant to be

And we’re practicing perfectly, then tell me…

 

Why you’re like cold water

In the winter

You’re like cold water

In the winter

 

It’s not a game but you’ve got to play

That’s easy to say when you’re not losing

And it’s just not fair to be

On the other side of me, when I’m trying

 

So you’re like cold water

In the winter

You’re like cold water

In the winter

 

You’re like cold water

In the winter

You’re like cold water

In the winter

 

I guess it means that you can’t stay

But don’t you worry; I’ll take your advice anyway

And I know

 

It’s like I’m cold water

In the winter

It’s like I’m cold water

In the winter

 

It’s like cold water

In the winter

It’s like cold water

In the winter

David

Lyrics written by Oksana Porteous

David, you’re too big now for that tote bag I’ve been carrying you around in

David, stretch your legs come out and play a little song now, you deserve it

You, you don’t need to hide

You know I see you peeking out behind the bunk bed

I know you’re scared of monsters

But I’m gonna need your help if I’m gonna fight them

 

David, I’m too big now for that garbage can I crawled so deep inside of

David, hold my hand now and I’ll kiss you just the way the morning sun does

You, you don’t need to hide

You know I see you, but what’s more, I know I need you

I know you’re scared that I won’t be there

But I’ve come here right now so I can tell you that…

 

I will take care of you

You can let your halo shine

Fill your basket so full of flowers

And I’ll top up your cup with wine

Together we can make it through

You need me and darlin’ I need you

David, I’ll take care of you

 

David, I never knew you, but you’ve grown so fast in front of my eyes

David, this is all brand new, but I just can’t wait for your next surprise

You, you don’t need to hide

My arms are open come on up, crawl right inside

Now turn around and look in front of you

This is how it feels to be alive and…

 

I will take care of you

You can let your halo shine

Fill your basket so full of flowers

And I’ll top up your cup with wine

Together we can make it through

You need me and darlin’ I need you

David, I’ll take care of you

 

Oh, it scared me when you ran away

‘Cause you’re a part of me so I’m gonna need you to stay so…

I will take care of you

You can let your halo shine

Fill your basket so full of flowers

And I’ll top up your cup with wine

Together we can make it through

You need me and darlin’ I need you

David, I’ll take care of you

Ditata's Choir

Lyrics written by Carol-Anne Day

Follow me

‘Cause my house is where the river ends

And follow me

I said hurry up ‘cause your life depends on it

 

It’s where all the colors have faded softly into grey

Where all the dreamers meet
To build all of the games we play

So if you had a car,
I guess I’d recommend you came our way

‘Cause tomorrow I’ll probably be in bed all day (yeah)

I said tomorrow, I’ll probably be in bed

 

Follow me

‘Cause my house is where we’ve all pretended

So bring a case,
‘Cause there’s no consequence for obligations suspended

 

Where Ditata’s Choir sang ‘till late last night
Or maybe this morning

Where we all wear the same shoes

And we’re always barding but we are never boring

So if you know the star, then let it lead you

To our open door

‘Cause tomorrow things will be

Just like they were before (yeah)

I said, tomorrow there won’t be anymore

 

Where Ditata’s Choir sang ‘till late last night

Or maybe this morning

Where we all wear the same shoes

And we’re always barding but we are never boring

So if you know the star, then let it lead you

To our open door

‘Cause tomorrow things will be

Just like they were before (yeah)

I said, tomorrow there won’t be anymore

Forget

Lyrics written by Oksana Porteous

I see you’re getting older. Do you remember me?

I’ll tell you one time over where you can meet me.

 

Do you know we went there yesterday; and you had a good time?

I guess it doesn’t matter; I’ll just let you rewind.

 

I hope it feels good on your side.

I hope you’re stuck in the good, good times.

I hope it feels good on your side.

I’ll just hold your hand, so you can protect.

 

All these strangers smile at you; and ask for your advice.

Just tell them what you’d want for them if they were in your life.

 

I hope it feels good on your side.

I hope you’re stuck in the good, good times.

I hope it feels good on your side.

I’ll just hold your hand, so you can protect, while I watch you forget.

 

Look, a bird is singing just for me...

My garden is blooming just beautifully...

I can see that I’m right where I always, always, always wanted to be...

 

I hope it feels good on your side.

I hope you’re stuck in the good, good times.

I hope it feels good on your side.

I’ll just hold your hand, so you can protect, while I watch you forget.

 

Haunted

Lyrics written by Carol-Anne Day

Once in a while I’ll crack a rather disingenuous and crocadillic smile,

‘Cause I see, through glass eyes, a time when I was less Jekyll, and a bit more Hyde.

Y’see... The devil’s in my mind, he’s tellin’ white lies

To the angel by my side, who’s pointing out the signs.

And I’m too tired, maybe even blindered,

Like I’m strayin’ from the flock, and I cannot find my shepherd.

 

In times like these, when the past becomes the present,

You can light the match below it, but the memory never burns.

Scorched into my Ego, a hundred shames a’flamin’,

They’re hot enough to burn you, but not to light your smoke.

Y’see... The devil’s in my mind, he’s tellin’ white lies

To the angel by my side, who’s pointing out the signs.

And I’m too tired, maybe even blindered,

Like I’m strayin’ from the flock, and I cannot find my shepherd.

 

Oh hollow me, I will follow you. Hallelujah, Hallelu...

 

In this frenzied state, I’ll take my match up to the slate,

And blow the smoke upon these remnants.

Push the Ego ‘neath the Id for all the wrong I did,

You still have me and I have you, and we will soldier through.

Y’see... My devil enjoys the city’s white noise,

But the angel drowns it out, he quiets my mind.

And I’m too tired, and this city is a madhouse,

And I can’t see my shepherd, but he’s carryin’ the lantern.

 

Oh hollow me, I will follow you. Hallelujah, Hallelu...

 

All your fears aside, misrepresented by the cold.

And in my mind I made sense of it all, so just brace for the fall.

 

Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelu.

 

Laughing

Lyrics written by Oksana Porteous

So you forgive me; you stand at my door

I smell roses like so many times before

Hey I’m sorry too

And I’ll reach out to you

Oh I’m sorry; I thought you were there

 

Hello shadow; there’s a chair waiting here

I see your bluff and I’ll raise you six damn years

I can wait all night

Go ahead take your time

I’m getting out of here alive

 

I see you laughing for me...let me take your place

 

Hello stranger; I’ve seen you before

I hope it didn’t hurt much to be so ignored

I see your eyes they’re shining

I see your hands they’re trying

To wipe my eyes

All the while you’re laughing

 

I see you laughing for me...let me take your place

 

I love your laughing

I love your laughing

 

Naked

Lyrics written by Oksana Porteous

You bring me lilies and you vacuum my bedroom

You take an hour just to do your hair

You leave me little notes or send me a message

Just to let me know you’re always there

 

You own a power tool and know how to use it

And you don’t mind if I just stand and stare

You know my love and never ask me to prove it

And now you let me take off your underwear

 

I love you mostly when you’re naked

Yeah when you’re naked

Oh we can make it

Or we can break it

Yeah when you’re naked

I love you mostly when you’re naked

 

You’ve been around the world and tell me your stories

And I just listen ‘cause I’ve been nowhere

I know you think that I am paying attention

Despite my hot blank drooling stare

 

And now you ask if I prefer the country

Or if the city life is more my speed

Well pardon me if I just rip your clothes off

Wherever we go you just won’t need these

 

I love you mostly when you’re naked

Yeah when you’re naked

Oh we can make it

Or we can break it

Yeah when you’re naked

Oh I love you mostly when you’re naked

 

Oh I’ve seen you in a suit and tie

Yeah you clean up real good

Camping in the woods

In a rye soaked t-shirt passed out for good

But nothing compares

To you when you’re bare… naked

 

Yeah when you’re naked

Oh we can make it

Or we can break it

Yeah when you’re naked

I love you mostly when you’re naked

Pendulum

Lyrics written by Oksana Porteous

I know there’s a reason I met you when I did

I was just thinking ‘bout going back to him

But some strong power stepped in and said no

It turned me one-eighty and said; here you go

 

And we laughed and we fell in love

And we talked in ways that I only dreamed of

It was magic I deserved

What I needed to learn that I…

 

I never wanted to leave him; I never wanted to go

But I was crying out for a time to find me and, and he could never let me go

And now all I want to do is love you, but I’m stuck in yesterday

Jumping in with both feet is harder than just to say and

Gonna need some time to let my pendulum swing

But I’ll meet you in the middle; yeah I’ll meet you in the middle of everything

 

I know there’s a day when I’ll stop wishing he was you

Wishing he thinks and says and does the things you do

And I’ll stop crying when you’re not like him in every way

You see, I’m just used to being treated that way

 

And we cried and we fell in love

And you held me how I only dreamed of

It was magic I deserved

What I needed to learn that I…

 

I never wanted to leave him; I never wanted to go

But I was crying out for a time to find me and, and he could never let me go

And now all I want to do is love you, but I’m stuck in yesterday

Jumping in with both feet is harder than just to say and

Gonna need some time to let my pendulum swing

But I’ll meet you in the middle; yeah I’ll meet you in the middle of everything, of everything

 

I don’t want to go back it’ll just be the same but I keep messing up and using his name

Oh I just want to look in your eyes and see who you are

Oh I just want to feel that letting go when you first fall in love and forget what you know

When I met you I was where I wanted to be for the first time

While you’ve been such a friend I’ve been back and forth

And you’re patiently letting this run its course

And I thank you for letting me go oh cause you know that I

 

I never wanted to leave him; I never wanted to go

But I was crying out for a time to find me and. and he could never let me go

And now all I want to do is love you, but I’m stuck in yesterday

Jumping in with both feet is harder than just to say and

Gonna need some time to let my pendulum swing

But I’ll meet you in the middle; yeah I’ll meet you in the middle

Oh I’ll meet you in the middle of everything

Photograph

Lyrics written by Oksana Porteous

We were both just eighteen inches tall in that beat up old wheelbarrow

Her name was Carla and we played Red Rover and we Care-bear stared those cars to come over

He was seventeen and his only dream was to go to some places that he’d never seen

And the world said don’t, but I packed his bags and said go

 

Your small apartment with your hide-a-bed was the perfect place to lay my head

We blew a tire just outside Quill Lake so we painted our nails on the back of the tail gate

You held my flowers and I held yours and we took to the trampoline with our swords

And we saw our hair go blond red black and blue

 

And snap, there goes another photograph

How’d I even get here

I couldn’t tell you now

Cause there’s so many things that are so unclear

All we were scared of is that it would end before we’d begun

So we said, turn around, take ten paces and run

 

Key chain is scratched but I never lost it ‘cause it spent ten years in my front pocket

Went back in time to find a lost what if just to see that it didn’t have all I had given it

I was seventeen and my only dream was to go to some places that I’d never seen

And the world said don’t, but I packed my bags and said go

 

And snap, there goes another photograph

How’d I even get here

I couldn’t tell you now

Cause there’s so many things that are so unclear

All we were scared of is that it would end before we’d begun

So we said, turn around, take ten paces and run

 

And I am standing here

Looking forward into a mirror

And I break into a million seven years

And you are here with me

Soaking wet from the ocean breeze

And I ask, can we stay here, please, please, please

 

And it went snap, there goes another photograph

How’d I even get here

I couldn’t tell you now

Cause there’s so many things that are so unclear

All we were scared of is that it would end before we’d begun

So we said turn around, take ten paces no…

This way I wanna see your face, yeah…

Turn around, take ten paces and run

Poison Ivy

Lyrics written by Oksana Porteous

Can’t you see me awake in my sleep trying not to disturb you

Can’t you feel me reaching for you with a hand full of poison ivy

 

Can you hold it; help me to put it down

Can you throw it right down on the ground

Can you solve this desire to keep it ’round…this poison ivy

 

Wake up and smell that I made the coffee

Jump up, see, I wrote your name in the sand

All messy with my left hand

 

Your legs are long you can tiptoe over

My will is strong; all I need is your hand

I’ll find a new place to stand

 

Can’t stand this poison ivy

It’s all around and on me

Grew so tall that I can’t see

Which way is out

 

This house of cards is closed for business

But its got a big yard I’m sure we’ll find a way in

All messy without a plan

 

Now come on let’s play with my new shredder

Then let’s ditch it on the way to our island

Can you see our flag flying

 

Can’t stand this poison ivy

It’s all around and on me

Grew so tall that I can’t see

Which way is out

 

Look into my eyes

Touch your hand to my face

And then kiss that spot

That your finger just traced

And then take those arms and just hold me

And hold me and hold me and hold me cause

 

Can’t stand this poison ivy

It’s all around and on me

Grew so tall that I can’t see

Which way is out

I only need a way out

So wake up and smell that I made the coffee

Reckless

Lyrics written by Carol-Anne Day

Whisper to me at the dawn

Melt me down for a cup of coffee

Cause when I open my eyes

The world is born

 

Hold my feet down

To keep the sky from my shoes

And when I close my eyes

Just hold me there

 

If I were strong enough I’d stay at home and bide my time with you

But I am…sha la la

If I were wiser still I’d shut my mouth and listen one time

But you know me

 

You’re steady at my heel

But I am reckless at the wheel

You’re steady at my heel

But I am reckless at the wheel

 

Rake my hands across my eyes

Wake them up to meet the sun

Cause through the cigarettes I see the sky

And then I know that it’s mine

 

If I were strong enough I’d stay at home and bide my time with you

But I am…sha la la

If I were wiser still I’d shut my mouth and listen one time

But you know me

 

You’re steady at my heel

But I am reckless at the wheel

You’re steady at my heel

But I am reckless at the wheel

 

Sha la la la la la

La la la la                   (Oh won’t you please sit still)

Sha la la la la la

La la la la                   (Oh won’t you stay here please)

 

If I were strong enough I’d stay at home and bide my time with you

But I am…sha la la

If I were wiser still I’d shut my mouth and listen one time

But you know me

 

You’re steady at my heel

But I am reckless at the wheel

You’re steady at my heel

But I am reckless at the wheel

Someone Else's Garden

Lyrics written by Oksana Porteous

Book was written a long time ago

But I don’t know where to get my copy

Story is so old

But you forgot to tell me over coffee

 

You can’t grow in someone else’s garden

You won’t know how to get started

And that’s the problem

That is the problem

 

Oh I’ve seen you do this before

And I’d love to follow you

But I’m standing at the door

And I don’t know how to walk through

 

You can’t grow in someone else’s garden

You won’t know how to get started

And that’s the problem

That is the problem

 

And who were they

To pick up the very first stone and write the very first word

And who was there to teach them

And who were they

To tell them the whole thing was so very absurd

And what did they do to beat them

 

You can’t grow in someone else’s garden

You won’t know how to get started

And that’s the problem

That is the problem

Time

Lyrics written by Oksana Porteous

Count on one hand

Time you’ve had

Laugh on the other hand

At time your best friend

 

Funny how it’s been here

So funny you could cry

Foolish that it’s been here

This whole time; time

 

Count on one hand

Those you hold dear

Laugh on the other hand

With those right here

 

Funny how they’ve been here

Funny you don’t know why

Foolish that they’ve been here

This whole time; time

 

They say it’s never too late

They say it’s never the same

They say there’s too many stars to wish upon

They’ll never be gone

 

You know goodbye’s all it takes

Hello you’ve made some mistakes

You know how many stars you’ve wished upon

They’ll never be gone

 

Count on one hand

Time you have

Laugh on the other hand

With time your best friend

 

Funny how it’s been here

Go ahead let your self cry

Funny that it’s still here

By your side; time

To Arms

Lyrics written by Carol-Anne Day

Steady, steady the horses, batten the bridges, they’re storming tonight.

Boy, take hold of your princess, we’re riding for conquest down the river tonight.

 

So hold your gold and your silver, ‘cause when she dies she can’t take it with her.

 

And you will hold your kingdom

And you will hold your walls

But there’s a hole inside where a heart should be

But instead there’s nothing at all

 

Mothers, take hold of your babies, hotter than Hades, fire in the sky.

Brothers to arms, together we stand, together we die.

 

So hold your gold and your silver, ‘cause when she dies she can’t take it with her.

 

And you will hold your kingdom

And you will hold your walls

But there’s a hole inside where a heart should be

But instead there’s nothing at all

 

So hold your gold and your silver, ‘cause when she dies she can’t take it with her.

 

And you will hold your kingdom

And you will hold your walls

But there’s a hole inside where a heart should be

But instead there’s nothing at all

Valley of the Kings

Lyrics written by Carol-Anne Day

I am a wanderer of worlds

And I have crossed deserts many

And I will cross ten thousand more

Before my life has ended

 

I am a wanderer of worlds

And I have crossed deserts many

And I will cross ten thousand more

Before my life has ended

 

I have wandered the world

And I have seen ten thousand faces

And I will see ten thousand more

They help to fill up all those brick empty spaces

 

Oh won’t you bury me

Oh in the Valley of the Kings

And while you’re there bury yourself next to me

So when I’m dead and gone

I can still, I can still hear you sing

 

I have wandered alone

Ten thousand sunrises and sunsets

And I’m tired and my shoes are so worn

And I’m still standing in the place where I started

 

Oh won’t you bury me

Oh in the Valley of the Kings

And while you’re there bury yourself next to me

So when I’m dead and gone

I can still, I can still hear you sing

 

Wander, wander, wander, on and on

Wander, wander, wander, on and on

Wander, wander, wander, on and on

Wander, wander, wander, on and on and on…

Waiting for You

Lyrics written by Oksana Porteous

Stand so still against the wall; can you feel that craving

Hands so frayed from the pull; so much worth saving

It’s almost November and we can’t remember

What used to bring so much life in May

Seems any day now, ‘cause we’ve been saying how

We’ve got to give this all away

 

Lay so still in this fall; can you feel that shaking

Now stand up and be small; none for the taking

There’s no one to blame ‘cause we gave it away

And there’s nothing to say now just hold my hand

And just come closer ‘cause there’s something for us

If we just listen we’ll hear it say

 

I, I’ve been waiting for you. I’ve been waiting, waiting, waiting for you

And I, I started, started without you,

But I’m waiting, waiting, waiting for you

I just need you, I just need you.

 

Can’t see through this new wall; building it higher

Friends of fear have such gall; no room desire

And how many ghosts do we keep making toasts to

And when will this wine go down with no sting

Open these doors; can we hear our hearts

As they try to speak and say the same thing

 

I, I’ve been waiting for you. I’ve been waiting, waiting, waiting for you

And I, I started, started without you,

But I’m waiting, waiting, waiting for you

I, I’ve been waiting for you. I’ve been waiting, waiting, waiting for you

And I, I started, started without you,

But I’m waiting, waiting, waiting for you

I just need you, I just need you.

 

Listen to me; I’m telling you, in this change, what I decide

Talk to me ‘cause I’m listening; you no longer have to hide

This gift, this gift; here we are…still alive

It’s alright, it’s alright if we’re blind for a while

 

‘Cause I, I’ll be waiting for you. I’ll be waiting, waiting, waiting for you

And I, I started, started without you, but I’m waiting, waiting, waiting for you

I, I’ll be waiting for you. I’ll be waiting, waiting, waiting for you

And I, I started, started without you, but I’m waiting, waiting, waiting for you

I just need you, I just need you.